Thoughts of our WONDERFUL God!!

I'm starting a blog to remain in touch and keep friends and family up to date on things that go on with our family. In thinking of how to begin my first entry....I don't think of our latest family news, or how Andie is almost crawling or how Avery woke up sick this morning.....again!!! I think of all of the blessings I've been given throughout my life and how grateful I am for our wonderful, merciful Creator.
My life has undergone some miraculous changes in the last several months since the birth of our second daughter. Through prayer and faith and friends, I've found that this God that I've known for most of my life is right next to me and surrounding me in every step I take and every breath that I breathe. He is the companion that I seek when I feel lonely. He is my deliverer when I feel weak and overtaken. He is my strength when I feel like I can bear no more and cannot go on. He is my hope that things will be brighter tomorrow and that this life he has graciously given me will truly end up glorifying Him. He is the wisdom I seek to teach my children and the patience and love that flows through me when I strive to be the best wife and help meet to my husband.
I suppose it was in the moment that I realized that my life is not my own, that I realized the depth and power of God's love. He truly is ALL around us. His Word sustains every single thing in the world....how amazing!! What an awesome, powerful God! We were created for Him. We are here to live FOR Him, to glorify Him, to honor Him, to make Him happy in the things we choose to do and say. Much like that strong desire to please and receive acceptance from our earthly father, God wants us to honor and serve Him....our Heavenly Father.
When I feel like I'm not quite good enough to be called His child and I've found myself wrapped up in the sin of the world, He's the one who continually forgives me....over and over and over again. When I feel guilty and unworthy or I feel that my sin is too great, he still forgives me. When I feel that my heart is so covered with deceit and my spirit is burdened with sinful thoughts and feelings....he washes me and lifts me up. Back in His loving arms I find myself. I am clean, forgiven and loved unconditionally. He takes away the feelings of distance and loneliness and helplessness....He restores the purity in my soul every time that I ask. It's amazing that that is all we have to do....just ask. Over the years in my life I've been caught up in feeling that as soon as I am forgiven I just go out and sin again and how can He possibly forgive me AGAIN?? But, recently I've accepted reality I've heard all my life...WE ARE SINNERS!!! How could I expect perfection from myself when it's impossible? My responsibility is to love Christ and do my best to honor and serve Him and keep His commandments and repent when I've sinned....over....and over....and over....and over. He keeps on forgiving me because He loves me! Through all of this realization I've come to know and deeply believe that I am worth everything to Him. I am loved and sought after and led by Him. No longer am I afraid that my sin is too great, my distance from Him has become too far or my guilt has overtaken me. He is still there, like He's always been my whole life. I just had to get over ME and focus on HIM!!